@Kayhara, I understand some of what is being said in the videos and posts here.

Can you imagine that I've lived on the edge of killing myself for almost three decades?

But everyday I find healing.

I know that one of these coming days I may find myself against the state. And I've already started my death meditation.

But on that fateful day it will be the state that shall kill me. It shall be a day when the state shall commit a crime against me and itself.

In both videos that you've provided, we see of cases of depression and mental disorder being mentioned. From my experience this is to be expected, because our states have very oppressive mental health laws and ideas.

And the sad part is that we can hardly see that all this suicide and desire to die is a result of oppression from and by our states.

Pain is conquerable, but we live in a world that idolizes it.