@dijk* - you sound desperate. I'm not sure you're getting the help you want. If you do not find the book you're looking for in Kenya,I will get/send you one from UK (free). Let me know. Motobex.

By the way do we have an equivalent of Alcoholics anonymous in Kenya? I think many people would benefit from it

thanks all, @Fundaah; thanks for encouraging me - you are the second person to congratulate me for what I have decided.. even my closest friends didn't. I think drunkards don't like it when they one of their own decides to quit. @JkMwatha; I really appreciate your good gesture,let me try my best and if I don't get the book locally,I will let you know. none

@Djkistra - I'm guessing from the level of concern you are 'redeemable' i.e. not yet alcoholic but you want to avoid getting there - that is commendable. Just to add on the Leona's wisdom,other that staying away from bad company (recall the analogy of crabs in a bucket - people who are wasting their lives in bars will always encourage you to hang out with them so it seems 'normal' ),the other thing is 'cagnitive behavior analysis' - basically rather than see a shrink,learn yourself to identify the 'triggers' that lead to drinking or drinking binges and avoid them. Its not drinking ten beers that is bad - its the first that opens the door for the rest. So if you need to deliberately leave your phone at the office (thus be disconnected from buddies in the evening and night) - do it. if it means moving to a neighbourhood where there are no bars on the way home (thus avoiding saying 'let me drop in for JUST ONE' ) DO IT,etc. Look closely at what precedes the drinking and resolve to change that somehow. Might be idleness,might be stress at work or home,it might be money related (cut up your ATM card if you have to),etc. You are your own master. Bonne chance! The problem with equality is that we desire that it be with those that have more than us rather that those that have less

Each time the URGE comes your way,call a meeting of you both and PLEAD with the URGE to give you at least a little more time before you take a beer. Continue with those meetings and plead for more time everytime.