Enjoy your weekend.

Does or can nothing exist?

Is your question equivalent to 'Can an experiencer cease to experience'?

My greatest achievement this week has been to reconstruct the story of Jesus from before birth to resurrection, to the point of writing the Gospel many years after ascension.

The story is hardly literal-physical-logical. To meet Jesus and see him for who he was and is, I have to look at the psycho-historical.

Today I have learned that it's impossible to love my neighbor as myself if the currency of exchange extends beyond love and into other things like money, food, clothing and the like.

As such I wonder whether the Gospel isn't inadequate afterall, in its assertion that God gave us his son as a sacrifice because he loved us.

Or even, could we say that Christ loved us more than he loved himself to the extent of crucifixion?

If the crucifixion was an act in which God and Christ loved themselves as they loved us, was it then an act of salvation for Man?

Am asking this because I suspect my previous belief about love has led me to nothing but loss and anger at the human, and more specifically, myself. It's like a grand delusion revealed.