that's too adventurous bana

Thanks everyone, I think this topic is important because I am very sure others are facing the same challenges or overcame them. I also think it’s important because it’s a testament for everyone to appreciate their struggles and brokenness here and there because once you have enough not to worry about your bills then life start getting complicated since you no longer look forward to the paydays to buy the small things you desire.
For me, maybe kids might be the solution. About material things, I used to think that's what I wanted but I realized a while ago that I hate anything that stands out, I don't like big houses, expensive cars, I buy cheap clothing etc. My wife can have what she want but problem is that she has her own job and her own money so she really doesn't need my money to spoil herself.
I exercise with a personal trainer 4 days a week but I get frustrated when I don't see progress. I enrolled in dancing classes but dropped out after 3 lessons because I couldn't stand not being able to learn faster, didn't know it was hard to dance.
We do vacations but it get boring when in a resort there are only 5 black couples and 500 whites in a resort in Africa. For church/God, I am not a man of faith, I have been to church but it's probably one of the crazy places I have been to, church people are crazy.
My circle of “friends” are in their 50s, some of them extremely wealthy, I have also made them a ton of money therefore they always want to include me in their boring lifestyles; I drag my wife to some of the ridiculous old people social events, we both hate but have to play the game, my wife is getting tired with them.
I love what I do but I worry every day that this might be what life is all about and that’s scary, my wife already recommended counseling!!!!!! Midlife crisis indeed!

It was actually 10k.

Be a mentor to others who would wish to join your field. Build others. Be part of a charity where you can give back to society. There are so many people in need.

You are on the other side of that point where you think you know everything.

You are now ready for a different kind of education.

Start here:

https://www.youtube.com/...uypQrLdF1lFnYp2V-WAEcKu

Listen to one every day and meditate on it.