Theism, atheism, agnosticism, anti-religion etc are personal belief systems that sane individuals feel persuaded internally to subscribe to, there is nothing wrong if your god self (the God/DNA/some primordial knowing inside you) becomes curious. Just go with the flow and see where it may lead you.
Personally, although I have many questions, my being is inclined towards existence of a Grand Designer of things. Randomness/gray areas/infinity as it may seem is a higher order of things.
My mantra: I would rather believe in God that "doesn't exist" than not to believe and get shocked he does!
I AM trust in GOD, I AM belief in THYSELF