It gets to that point in life that you have to push your self to do anything, if you go to one Frank Njenga he will tell you its depression, maybe not, but for now u need to get your energy levels up start with something easy like enrolling in a gym, do the group classes, your energy level will begin to go up.

@Maka, what, and how much of it, are you willing to spend on therapy?

I can help you design a treatment for yourself. I have spent considerable time not only learning about such mental and spiritual conditions like bipolar, and others but I have also undergone healing from something similar to what you are going through.

Your problem is common, normal, and managable. Usikonde.

Thanks mlefu, jaribu kusoma yote....very important.

interesting... Melancholics are very emotional. They
are moved deeply by beauty, and by
distress. They are very easily hurt,
because of their perfectionistic
tendencies.
Often theirmoods are like delicate
glass sculptures; built up slowly,
deliberately, and carefully, but easily
broken, and hard to repair once
shattered.
They respond to things that they
dislike with misery and with tears
rather than with rage.
They are very slow to 'snap', but will
hold onto emotions for a very long
time. They hold grudges, because
people who have failed to meet their
standards, who have hurt them, will
not just suddenly meet those
standards without changing
drastically.
They can become very 'moody', and
they can be difficult to interact with
because they are so easily hurt.
They are not aggressive, and wish to
flee from things that cause them
distress.
If they want to get back at another
person, they are more likely to make
them feel guilty than to insult them
bluntly.
They are 'thin-skinned'.

Perhaps you've been passive-agressive too long.

When was the last time you broke something or hit someone?