There is a song by Rose Muhando titled "Nipe Uvumilivu." In it she sings of all her tribulations in life and asks God to give her perseverance (Uvumilivu). What I have found moving and comforting about the song is that she does not ask God to take away her tribulations or to make them stop. She asks and cries that He only gives her Uvumilivu.

Stand in that place of hopelessness and loss. Feel the pain, let the tears flow, don't fight it, don't run away from the sorrow, invite God to see you as you are in your nakedness and dejection and ask him to give you Uvumilivu, ask Him to stand by you, to stand with you and to stand for you. @Maka, it is you and God, no intermediaries, talk to Him.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_Q6ywg13XQ

Pole sana kwa yaliyotendeka. What you are going through is a normal process of grief. I will say a prayer for you to be strong during this difficult time.

@maka, talk about your dear one. You may find yourself bursting into tears while talking about their life and death. This is a stage that we all must pass through. You may be tempted to be angry with God but remember he is sovereign and he is good all the time, including now. Get something to be thankful for daily, get busy again and after a period of time you sure shall heal.

Been through some deep grief. I would say seek solace in God. Even when it doesn't make sense. Then have some counseling. Verbalize your pain. It helps.

Pole sana. Maybe you try professional counseling. It could be of help.