@Cool jamaa
I have been in similar shoes...but am totally different now. In my negative cacuun..it just dawned on me one day,that i can't live like that forever. I stood up..dusted myself and moved on with my life. I buried my negative energy,de-linked myself from negative people and swore never to look back. Anyone can be what they choose to be in life. And btw,if you look deep inside yourself,you will find at least 10things to be grateful for everyday. I used to sit down with pen and paper..and not even think of one, but when i changed my way of looking at things,i now find hundreds of things to be grateful for...but i only write the top 10 everyday!

Walk into a bookshop and buy Joel Osteen's 'Become a better you' Or 'Your best life now'. It's a good starting point. Or give me your email address and i will lend you mine - as long as you promise to read the book and not give up on it too!
Nevermind what haters say, ignore them til they fade away - Just live your life